Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.



Ol' Will thought a lot about love. I guess sometimes I do too. Perhaps a bit too much, perhaps a bit too often. I watch lovers old and lovers new and glow inside for knowing what they feel... and longing to feel it again I understand the seasons of the heart in a way I never wanted.

I last sat down to write on Valentines day. Contemplative of time on the computer, I wondered if my life had become consumed with the search for love. In that quiet internal thought I realized how much life I live outside of the on-line world. I've come to see that the world of the chat is not all that much different than the off-line world if one doesn't invest time in it. Investing in my life, in my real world, that's where my heart truly is.

Having been so busy and under such significant stress these past two weeks, I've had to stop and take some time for me. Cancelled a few events, or sat unmoved and unfocused during some unavoidable appointments. I can't recall the last time I sat down to read in quiet and dim lighting. I can't recall the sounds of classical music that usually fill my life. Much of this time has been internal and for want of some semblance of a private life, I won't put it all out here for you this time.

I struggle with whether or not I shall continue this journal for much longer. Sometimes I think it's finally served it's purpose. Sometimes I am just not sure. Mostly just not sure.

I've been blessed by a few conversations with friends long seen. Happy to hear Russ is getting back to school and has lifted up his sights to something different. He's got direction now and you can hear his confidence back to it's old self when he talks. Jody, off on the other side of the country has bounced back from a heart-fall. Reflecting on his optimism has inspired me once again. Mikel's in love! (again <g>).. only this time, well, uh, let's just wait and see. His new beau is clearly a dream, tall, charming, and oh so enamored with him. Colin's got a new house-mate. Or maybe I should just say mate. I felt such joy for him upon hearing this news and despite his hesitation about knowing if it's the right thing, I feel strongly that Michael will be all the better for it in the long run. Yes, challenges do lie ahead, but nothing dad can't handle. (a wee bit, I wish it was me)

I'll get a chance to see Brendan and Tony and Dave for sure come mid-March. I understand the weather there is about to start warming up a bit and I'm hopeful that a weekend getaway can be planned... should I pray for a long Easter weekend in some heretofore unvisited land? (well, I am whether or not I should be) School's become difficult and in an effort to once again relax into my joyful life, I've dropped that hateful Finance (again!).....will I EVER get through it!?!?! Maybe I'll change majors again.

Don't run away. Face it. Things become clearer as hours pass. Time to let a few hours pass between my waking worlds.

Thanks for stopping by.

Last Updated: 02/28/02

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