Finally I've made some headway on some reading I'd put on hold because of school. This week I guess I needed to put school on hold for a change. For me, it seems I often put off doing some things to heighten the since of urgency for them. Sometimes I do my best work under pressure or in a crisis. The homework load required for this 5-week class is downright ridiculous. A full semester's worth of homework, projects, presentations, and research papers all in a 5-week period. And that's just one of the two classes. The other class, at least, gives us 9 weeks to complete. So putting off doing class work in lieu of personal reading served to increase my ability to focus on what had to be done. Yes, I finished this weeks assignments, started on next weeks, prepared for two projects, began my research topic investigation, and helped out a classmate or two with their work to boot.
I always thought that if you wanted to get something done quickly, you'd better give it to someone who's already busy -- they'll make the time! And I did. I do so much enjoy being busy. This week it was a way of distracting myself from dealing with being dumped; if it's even appropriate to call it that. Such a short-term relationship hardly deserves such a strong term; nonetheless, it hurt. I'm okay now. The longer they last the harder they are to get over (sometimes you may never get over some things). The part that hurts now, as it did before, and as it no doubt will again in the future, is the "not knowing why".
Things happen for a reason. I'm the kind of guy that likes to understand the "why". Some things don't have any answers to that question. Sometimes the answers are things we're not ready to hear at that time. Thus the "not knowing".
As if all of the sudden you get what you ask for, I made contact with most of my "long-lost" list and had time to hang out with some buds between classes and studying.
I finally heard back from John. His emails (especially when they're over a paragraph long) always send me off into long ago memories and remind me again how much I miss his company and conversation. I was happy to hear he's doing okay despite having had a cold and despite his best friend moving away. He said an old friend and his new partner were coming up for a visit this past weekend and I was so much wishing it was me; it's now been over two and a half years since I've had a chance to give him a hug. Linda and I had a chance to catch up and I learned that despite losing one of her much anticipated contracts, she's making the best of her new free time. She's about to begin painting her house, and she's bought a tractor to mow the acres surrounding her home. I SOOO much wish I could take four or five days out of school and pop up for a visit now; she says the weather is fantastic in PA this time of the year. Bobby is still planning on coming in this Thursday for Pride, even though everyone else has backed out for various reasons. I was happy to hear that he'd not suffered any from the flood waters in Baton Rouge. Russ called me out of the blue on Wednesday. I was thrilled to hear from him and that he's doing so good - despite his having been laid-off work on Friday the week before. Seems rather than head back toward Houston (or Montana), he's decided to move a little closer to his new beau in Orlando. Guess it'll be until August before I get to see him if I don't decide to make a visit to central Florida before then. Mikel and I had a chance to visit over dinner on Thursday night after his show and again on Saturday for a late lunch. He's not just doing well but rather seemed to be thriving, despite the loss of his office and not being allowed to go back into his home for another month (all flood-related). A former work-associate David joined us on Saturday. He and I had a chance to talk for several hours about our personal lives and how the company is faring in such a tumultuous time. It was nice getting a chance to get to know him. I caught Jenn on the phone while she and her roommate were stuck in traffic in L.A. on Friday. Seems they've decided to move out of their San Fran apartment and into L.A. but haven't quite yet found a place to call home. Those flight-attendants are so used to living out of suitcases, they don't seem to be bothered by not having a permanent address. It baffles me; but she's doing great and just got back from her first trip to London (she had a blast!). I still miss her and hope she'll pop back by for a quick hug and lunch sometime. Missi called me and we talked on the phone for hours!!! It was great re-connecting with her. She was totally stoked about her current romantic life - (she's bi-coastal now) with boyfriends in at least two major cities so far. Way to go girl!!! I hope the delays at O'Hare didn't keep her from getting some good ol' central air-conditioned comfort on Friday night <wink>. Still haven't heard back from Jody, Danny, or Shane -- call or write soon - okay?!
Spent the last two days hanging out with Sean. He's such good company and I cherish all our time together - God knows I won't see him much when Jeff gets back to Texas!!
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