Where is Sunshine?

Heart be true

I’d say inside

before I speak your name.

Heart be kind

I think aloud

before it’s you I blame.

Mind & body act as one

so I can know my game.

My soul speaks out

in a fiery tongue

and asks me to explain

Thoughts & feelings flow

so fast – I say

it’s just the pain.

But pain it’s not

and my soul is caught

by things done long since past.

I try to stop

the tears that fall

in hopes that this

will last.

I shout “shut up!”

with a muffled voice

to the questions that I ask.

Then slowly as

my tears subside

I begin to lift my mask.

I shake & shudder
I may run away
because you know my name.

But I’ll run back

with trusting eyes

if you accept my game.

If truth be known

I have no game,

but rather a soul that’s caught

somewhere in the rain.

2am 9/18/85